Just Remember and Trust

by Rebekah December 10, 2015

One reason I forget God’s grace in my life or how He has come through for me is fear. I start to believe God no longer cares about me because of my failures or that I have somehow stepped out of His will for my life. One day I hear one of my friends has cancer, or one of my family members are in the hospital. I get sick and have to stop serving on mission. Then I begin to ask “Why God?” “What did I do or not do?” “Why are my prayers bouncing off of the ceiling?” Then I start to believe God is not the good God He said He is.

But why do I do this? Because I am allowing myself to live in fear and I stop trusting in God. Trusting God means I believe He is who He says He is no matter what I see in my life. Trust means I believe I am who God says I am, no matter the mistakes I make. I have to believe that God feels about me what He said He feels, that God loves me and wants me as His bride, no matter what I feel like on any given day.

[quote] “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.” Matthew 6:28-33 [/quote]

Do I really believe this passage when that job falls through or the rent is due and I don’t know where the money is coming from? Do I truly believe and trust that God loves me more than the flowers or birds of the air? Sure it’s easy to believe God loves and cares for you when you have a big bank account and a nice new car but what about when you are on the mission field and you are down to your last fifty dollars, and suddenly your missionary sister wants to make a donation to a church that is struggling and it almost physically hurts you to give that money away? What about when the only car you have is totaled in an accident, what then?

That is what real trust in God looks like. Believing He has you even when you can’t take another step because life isn’t going the way you want it too. Knowing He has your best in mind even when you can’t believe saying “good bye” could be anywhere near best for you.

[quote]“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11[/quote]

That is what real trust in God looks like. Believing He has you even God knows no matter how dark the night is, the beauty of the morning is worth the night. The joy of seeing God give you just what you needed just in time is worth any trial. I know with out a doubt that losing a car or a job means God will give us a new one or He has a way for us to make it without one. I know and trust He would never harm us. God is a good Father! All I have to do is trust that He is good and remember how far He has bought me! Every day God shows me just how much He loves me through giving me just what I need no matter the circumstances.

Like the time Brooke and I were eating at a restaurant in Colombia and just as we finished we realized that we had forgotten to go by the ATM first but when we counted out the money we had between us it amounted to exactly what we needed down to the last peso (1/3000 of a dollar). Like my dad being able minister in Liberia, Africa through a miracle, with my beloved adopted sister Mercy in her home city. Like my friend in Zambia asking me to help the ladies of the Bible study group I was a part of buy some paint because they wanted to bless my beloved church I attended while there and I had just enough to help them buy all the paint they needed. Like a dear friend giving my family her car! God has been too good to me to doubt that He is anything but the loving Father He is! And He is the same in your life. You just have to remember and trust! Trust that He loves you and will never harm you!

[quote]“If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!” Matthew 7:11
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